Wondering Thoughts

Well my mind is everywhere right now, so I'll be writing whatever comes to mind, so here goes..

I wish I had someone to call mine, but I don't so I guess I won't dwell on the situation and make it take over my life. Just keep my eyes on the prize and keep it moving. BTW i don't think I ever told you guys what happened between me and the guy from my last post. Well we talked about why he's been acting up (not hitting me up) and basically after I told him I used date this guy like a year and a half ago, a month ago, He came to the conclusion that we should just be friends, because he's friend with the guy. I asked him when did he make up his mind about this, and he responded like a week ago. I then said if he felt this way, why didn't he just tell me instead of making me deal with this foolishness for a week. That's not being real. I told him I felt like he led me on, and that he was foul for doing so, and he just needs to be real with me. That was that...don't feel like lingering on that topic. Funny thing is now, he text me almost every day now. I do except his friendship, because he does seem like a caring person, but damn that's all I wanted in the first place, I wish things like this wasn't an issue. But I am going to keep my distance, because I still like him.

My hair I'm loving it right now, just got a relaxer on the 10th of September after being 11 weeks post, and my hair grew an inch and a half. I feel some what accomplished because my hair is definitely shoulder length now, and I can not wait until it reach arm pit length. There have been some thoughts about dreading up my hair in the future, but I have to find the right time in my life to do so.

I've been contacting a few people about internships, and I've found some that were good, I just need to start applying and see who excepts me. Most of them are out of state or out of country, its just that deep down inside I am somewhat nervous and scared to venture into another chapter of my life, there's always a feeling of uncertainty, but that's life. " You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore" Christopher Columbus.

Right now I am at a point in my life, where I am not where I want to be financially, and I still need to grow from that. I wish it was easier done than said that easier said than done, but its not. Its going to take discipline to get where I want to be in life financially. I don't have any credit card debts but the loans...oh my...what am I going to do...I've already figured out some things like Americorp/health corps. I just wish it didn't have to come to that, don't get me wrong though I DO WANT to be in those programs, because I have a passion for helping people, not just for the benefits

I wish at least 2 times a year I can travel to any country in the world with a friend that I choose, that would be pure awesomness. Matter of fact do you ever think how your career will allow you to serve the Lord, I was thinking about that the other day. And I felt a shame that I have so many things I want to do, but then where would I find a place to serve the Lord. I pray that where ever I go I find a church service or organization that keeps me in touch with my Savior.

Where's my loving husband at man or where is Mr right now??? lol...I'm bored, and I want a massage [sigggh]...

deuces time to look up some internships/fellowships