SO I'm here sitting in my temporary apartment thinking about my future. I have a 2 week deadline to write 4 essays for 4 different grad programs, I have no motivation and i have no idea how to organize my thoughts on why I want to be in the programs that I am applying to.
I think to myself, do I have to do this now?...what should I do? why do i want this? what am I gaining if I do this right a way? I feel like I need to know more about this world? I feel like I'm not ready mentally, I need to do some soul searching.
What do I really want out of life, I don't even know. I think its healthcare, but is it because I grew up around it. What does Renell want? I have no idea, ugh!
I really want to learn a different language...What if i did that for a year. Work and learn a different langauge fluently, then go to the country where that language is the main language, French or Spanish.
I mean I still would like to get my Masters in Public Health, but I just feel like I need to focus on me and figure out what I really want in my life. I need to understand my strengthens and weaknesses.
Somethings I really want to do is:
Learn a different language fluently
Speech Class (So I can speak clearer and more eloquently in a casual and business settings)
Find my personal style (fashion, makeup, spirituality, personality, if that makes sense etc)
I also want to learn more about the things going on around the world. I believe that someone that has knowledge has power, and I want knowledge.
I would like to get to know God more, more like a relationship!!
....to be continued
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