Untitled Poem

This is poem I just made up on the spot one day at work, I don't know if its good enough to put up on facebook or anywhere else, some parts of it seems a little choppy to me, but let me know what you think if you want...I was feeling a little emo but what ever its just a poem of how I felt at the time. Oh yea! Its not done!!

As i lay here in my bed, hearing the sounds of the cool summer rain meticulously pounding on the window pane one drop at a time

I closed my eyes as my mind wondered into my deepest inner thoughts.

Thoughts that I have kept hidden for years, scared because of not wanting to let my true self show,

My vulnerability...

it was too precious to me and know one was allowed to take it from me

Not even myself

My walls were built so high, that not even the sun could seap through the tiny crevices of the wall

So darkness became its cohabitant...

But as a I wondered around...

There it was a pearl so bright resting amongst the darkness

the pearl was a memory, a good memory, but a memory I wanted to forget forever

Memory of....."love"

That...is what it was inside of me...waiting to be exposed, wanting to be caressed and held

something that I will never leave unguarded just for the sake of my sanity

It was the memories of long nights on the phone having stimulating conversations, and days with just being held by the emotions of the feeling of "love" without uttering a word, because i thought we were in sync with our bodies and mind

It created a whirlwind in my mind, a sandstorm of deep desires that shifted all of my humane senses, loosing control of my reality...

I was yet again exposed by this thing called "love"

But this time I was the one looking in,

not to be bothered by the insecurities, lies and deception that sometimes came with this forbidden territory if loved by the wrong person.

-Antiguan Princess