I remember when i used to think that having a perm was the best thing every month i couldn't wait for a perm, until my hair kept on getting shorter and shorter. There was breakage and dry spots I was like ooo no this has gots to go...so in May 08 i decided to get braids so I wouldn't really have that much hair to shop off for the BC(big chop) So from since may i've been rocking nothing but braids and kinky twist and i am oh so ready to take out the braids and wear my real hair. Actually during that time i did take out my hair and got a straw set. What the hair dresser did was cut off the back permed part but left the top but majority of it was my natural hair but reason for this was because of the straw set. So when I got home i was not happy I knew i should have just gotten the BC. But now this time around I' will def. get the BC its now Nov. and I'll be taking out the braids mid Dec.
Experimenting: So far I have been experimenting with products. I have been using pantene pro-v for relaxed and natural hair and eve though i do have in braids i can feel a major difference when I use it I also use the moisturizer which is really good...
But then I also found out about another product called Miss Jessies Curls I think that's what its called but I have been using the buttercreme from her on my edges and it is great I can actually see the texture of my hair and i know for a fact that my hair has been growing. The only thing i dont like about this product is how expensive it is, but i'm the kind of person that will go to the extremes for my hair so I went out on the limb and bought it. The creme was 45 dollars to be exact and if you want to go check it out this is the website http://www.missjessies.com/!!
I hope me saying this helps someone but yea thats it for today!
Right now i feel overwhelmed with the mixed up emotions in me, they are not emotions i can easily describe to someone, they are emotions locked up in me that stays there until I am in a room all by myself and then they all let out. They let out slowly and tearfully i wanna be away from the world and the people in it. I think about my relationships and wonder how it would be, my mom tell me to not to give someone all your heart (until you are married) cuz they can easily break it even if they don't mean to, but how could i just not give some one my heart? Would i ever know how some one really loves me, or will it be a guessing game, even if he tells me that he loves me from deep within. Or is it a matter of me trusting people? I have been let down every single time that i don't believe what people say or trust them. I remember when i used to be optimistic but now I'm very pessimistic and it needs to change. I wonder if the real person is out there for me, or am I dating him right now. Only time will tell but what am I suppose to do now? Waste away my time! I need to live my life on goals right now and get those goals, and have nothing at all hold me back,, because like I say I can only live for me and God! And do what I know whats right for me. Not friends, boyfriends, peer pressure or w.e. I'm just tired of living my life like this, minimal, I'm not living it big, and that has to change.
I'm finally happy i have a blog, i could write about things that are going through my mind on a daily basis, and just vent to the world about whats making me go through all these emotions that i sometimes have. Its like I'm drowning in a pool of emotions that i just cant seem to fight. So to get over them i would just write them, instead of telling people that doesn't want to be caught up with how i might be feeling, and to criticize the way i think or feel. This is some of me that I'm willing to tell the world, but remember this is not all of me. You are only knowing so much of me that i put up here, but at the same time its helping me to vent and become a better person instead of keeping everything in me until i burst like a balloon!
-Antiguan Princess*
