Hair War

So far my journey of napputrality is going great, I can do twist outs, wash and go which i love ( i dont have to worry about a flat iron or a blow dryer) flat twist etc etc. but i am very proud of myself for doing this and not doubting if I can keep up with my natural hair. i actually enjoy doing my natural hair more than messing with my (in the past) permed hair. So far I have done twist outs, flat twist, curly afros, just anything I can remember and the natural girls on fotki, and other websites have kept me inspired through out my journey and I can not wait till my hair reaches my desired length which is anywhere past my shoulder, and then when that does happen I will have another desired length which is....well i think of it when it gets there! But the one thing that i have trouble with is at night time, even though I may wrap my hair in a silk scarf and sleep on a satin pillow case but when i wake up in the morning my hair is still so knotted up and dry, I mean i thought the head scarf and the pillow case was to help my hair from not losing the moisture...so what I have been doing is flat twisting my hair in big flat twist and then in the morning i might put some shea butter on the flat twist and take them out. I think it helps alot, i like the look it gives it still has the curlyness to it and the look of a blow out once i comb it out just a little. So i think i might just stick to that because it is an easy everyday style....next style I will be doing in Feb is kinky twist I feel as if my hair is too short have protective styles, so I'll keep in kinky twist in my hair for about a month, and then take them out and enjoy my new growth yayyyy lol!!! (oh yea the pic is a pic of an undid flat twist from that morning and shea butter for moisture)

my BC!!! finally

So after many months of keeping my hair in braids, I finally took them out today!!! well 12/16/08!!! and I love it....they cut all of the perm out and I am so loving it....i cant wait till it grows out....

Thee Bet

So i have less than one week before I actually cut off all of my perm and where my hair at its natural state....and I am some what anxious and scared at the same time. I have been looking up different ways to do my hair and how to keep it in tip top condition. I even bought miss jessie's butter creme and shampoo and conditioner, and I used it on the hair(the hair i took out of my braid in the middle of my head) and it has already began to work wonders lol! So i cant wait to see what it will do for my entire head. Anyways what was so funny to me today i was chilling with some of my home girls and they are so caught up with getting their permed and flat ironed that when ever i say anything about natural hair they call me erykah badu or say I am in a cult for natural hair lol (all I can do is laugh because I find it so funny lol)...and i'm like what ever call it like it is, but once my hair starts growing out and having the length that most of them want then they will realize, but I did almost get one of my friends to transition but she couldn't take not having a perm anymore, so she went back to the creamy crack lol....but the bet started off like this, My friend B was like I bet you (as in me) that you are going to go back to having a perm by the year 2010...and i was like oh really hmmm so she bet me $50.00 and i agreed on it, because the results that I am seeing are so great with my short hair i don't think I would want to go back to creamy crack. I mean I can just imagine my hair at a longer length. When I was younger my hair was soooo thick and long, and as soon as i put that relaxer in my hair everytime it would break. I would have the first couple of weeks to enjoy it but it would never fail, my hair would start breaking, tons of shedding, fragile weak split ends. My hair now (i cut off the perm in the back, it's just the top that needs to be cut off) is thick when I put a comb or brush through it I do not see any kind of shedding hair, breakage spots etc. It just exemplifies beauty to me, I mean dont get me wrong some girls look really great with their permed hair, but I am happy and will be with my "nappy" hair. It's so versatile, when ever i want to I can flat iron in, make it a puff/twist outs, and I know I can create my own hair styles. Hopefully in the future I can put some hairstyles on here but for now, I guess I'm just writing a daily blog of transitioning!
P.S I AM WINNING THAT BET!!!

Its finally December

It is finally December and I can not wait until i take these braids out and wear my real hair. I have waited so long and I am ready to see my real hair. I took some braids out in the middle to feel the texture and the thickness of my hair and it has made me more excited. So in preparation for me wearing my natural hair out I have done a lot research on natural styles, and there is soo many different styles I can do when my hair is natural. Hopefully I will know when to take hand out my hair lol...but in this is a video beautiful women with natural hair. They are inspirational to and I hope it will help someone make their decision to transition.

Going Natural

I remember when i used to think that having a perm was the best thing every month i couldn't wait for a perm, until my hair kept on getting shorter and shorter. There was breakage and dry spots I was like ooo no this has gots to go...so in May 08 i decided to get braids so I wouldn't really have that much hair to shop off for the BC(big chop) So from since may i've been rocking nothing but braids and kinky twist and i am oh so ready to take out the braids and wear my real hair. Actually during that time i did take out my hair and got a straw set. What the hair dresser did was cut off the back permed part but left the top but majority of it was my natural hair but reason for this was because of the straw set. So when I got home i was not happy I knew i should have just gotten the BC. But now this time around I' will def. get the BC its now Nov. and I'll be taking out the braids mid Dec.

Experimenting: So far I have been experimenting with products. I have been using pantene pro-v for relaxed and natural hair and eve though i do have in braids i can feel a major difference when I use it I also use the moisturizer which is really good...

But then I also found out about another product called Miss Jessies Curls I think that's what its called but I have been using the buttercreme from her on my edges and it is great I can actually see the texture of my hair and i know for a fact that my hair has been growing. The only thing i dont like about this product is how expensive it is, but i'm the kind of person that will go to the extremes for my hair so I went out on the limb and bought it. The creme was 45 dollars to be exact and if you want to go check it out this is the website http://www.missjessies.com/!!
I hope me saying this helps someone but yea thats it for today!

Overwhelmed

Right now i feel overwhelmed with the mixed up emotions in me, they are not emotions i can easily describe to someone, they are emotions locked up in me that stays there until I am in a room all by myself and then they all let out. They let out slowly and tearfully i wanna be away from the world and the people in it. I think about my relationships and wonder how it would be, my mom tell me to not to give someone all your heart (until you are married) cuz they can easily break it even if they don't mean to, but how could i just not give some one my heart? Would i ever know how some one really loves me, or will it be a guessing game, even if he tells me that he loves me from deep within. Or is it a matter of me trusting people? I have been let down every single time that i don't believe what people say or trust them. I remember when i used to be optimistic but now I'm very pessimistic and it needs to change. I wonder if the real person is out there for me, or am I dating him right now. Only time will tell but what am I suppose to do now? Waste away my time! I need to live my life on goals right now and get those goals, and have nothing at all hold me back,, because like I say I can only live for me and God! And do what I know whats right for me. Not friends, boyfriends, peer pressure or w.e. I'm just tired of living my life like this, minimal, I'm not living it big, and that has to change.

My Thoughts

I'm finally happy i have a blog, i could write about things that are going through my mind on a daily basis, and just vent to the world about whats making me go through all these emotions that i sometimes have. Its like I'm drowning in a pool of emotions that i just cant seem to fight. So to get over them i would just write them, instead of telling people that doesn't want to be caught up with how i might be feeling, and to criticize the way i think or feel. This is some of me that I'm willing to tell the world, but remember this is not all of me. You are only knowing so much of me that i put up here, but at the same time its helping me to vent and become a better person instead of keeping everything in me until i burst like a balloon!
-Antiguan Princess*