Umm, hello? Are U sure U know what you want!?

SO I'm here sitting in my temporary apartment thinking about my future. I have a 2 week deadline to write 4 essays for 4 different grad programs, I have no motivation and i have no idea how to organize my thoughts on why I want to be in the programs that I am applying to.
I think to myself, do I have to do this now?...what should I do? why do i want this? what am I gaining if I do this right a way? I feel like I need to know more about this world? I feel like I'm not ready mentally, I need to do some soul searching.
What do I really want out of life, I don't even know. I think its healthcare, but is it because I grew up around it. What does Renell want? I have no idea, ugh!
I really want to learn a different language...What if i did that for a year. Work and learn a different langauge fluently, then go to the country where that language is the main language, French or Spanish.
I mean I still would like to get my Masters in Public Health, but I just feel like I need to focus on me and figure out what I really want in my life. I need to understand my strengthens and weaknesses.

Somethings I really want to do is:
Learn a different language fluently
Speech Class (So I can speak clearer and more eloquently in a casual and business settings)
Find my personal style (fashion, makeup, spirituality, personality, if that makes sense etc)
I also want to learn more about the things going on around the world. I believe that someone that has knowledge has power, and I want knowledge.
I would like to get to know God more, more like a relationship!!

....to be continued

Whats new 2012? HAIR, Health, yada yada!

So it's now 2012, Happy New Year, and guess what??? I am back on my natural hair journey. I Big Chopped Dec 16, 2011 and will NOT be turning back! I will stay on this journey and my hair will love me for that. This is the second time I've BC'ed, the first time I BC'ed was back in Dec 2009 (whats up with December being my BC months? lol) I transitioned for 7 and a half months. My original plan was to transition for 2 years, but yea -_- I gave up on that one. I am happy with my decision and my hair is longer than what I thought it would be. The only heat I've put in my hair from since BC'ing was the blow dryer after a wash. I get sick very easily so unfortunately I can not do a wash&go until the summer. I am also a lot more health concsious I have high choleseterol, and I really need to get that under control so I will attempt to eat healthier, excercise, and hopefully the results will show through my hair, skin and weight. I would love to add a simple makeup look to my daily routine. I feel a lot better when I know I look good, and even though I know I look good without make up, I just love to jazz myself up a little. Every girl is entitled of that. Tomorrow I will be heading to Target to get some supplies that will help me kick off my new routine. I'm so excited! I actually need to write a list. That will help a lot!

Things I need:

Primer
Foundation
Moisturizing Mist (ElF MakeUp line, I read great reviews about it)
Nude Eye Shadows to brighten up around my eye


I've already gotten a regimen down for my hair. I love simplicity so the only thing I'm doing now is, Co Wash (weekly), Deep Conditioning (Homemade mixes weekly), Moisturize and Seal (daily) and Vitamins (hairfinity daily). There might be a few spontaneous things I do from time to time but thats basically my regimen until my hair gets longer, rocking a TWA is incredibly easy the second time around.

I'll be adding a picture sometime soon! =)