Love? Who?

No love interest and it's now 2012, it's going on a couple years now, like WTH..everyone's getting married or in steady relationships and I have, well I have my flexibility and open options because nothing is weighing me down, even though I sometimes wish I had that one person. Until then I'll be traveling the world, heck love will find me sooner or later...

Questions? IDK!!

I can make so many plans but i don't know what's the right move. Lord show me the right way,

Americorp
Teach English in Korea for a year
Work full time

You can tell from the list the most exciting thing is the second one but fear overwhelms me and I start missing my family and now I'm feeling stuck... I dont know what to do..

Natural Hair? Korea?

So I'm thinking of opening up a natural hair/weave store as a part time thing to make some money but how do I start? Time to research.

I was also thinking of taking another year off before I go to grad school and just broaden my horizon and learn more about the world we live in. I kind of want to teach english in another country preferably Korea. I told my mom what I was thinking and she went crazy. She doesn't want me to go and I felt like my high bubble popped. I was so frustrated, why is she caught up on how evil this world is. I mean I know the world has its issues, but should I be scared and not do what I want to do.

I told my dad the next day, and his response was the exact opposite, he said he's not going to deny me to go, because if thats what I want to do, then I should do it. He then goes on to say that he wouldn't want anyone to stop him from what he wants so he's not going to stop me, but he wants me to really think about my decision before I jump into something. Talk about a weight taken off my shoulder....Now i really have some thinking to do...

Until then peace out!

Umm, hello? Are U sure U know what you want!?

SO I'm here sitting in my temporary apartment thinking about my future. I have a 2 week deadline to write 4 essays for 4 different grad programs, I have no motivation and i have no idea how to organize my thoughts on why I want to be in the programs that I am applying to.
I think to myself, do I have to do this now?...what should I do? why do i want this? what am I gaining if I do this right a way? I feel like I need to know more about this world? I feel like I'm not ready mentally, I need to do some soul searching.
What do I really want out of life, I don't even know. I think its healthcare, but is it because I grew up around it. What does Renell want? I have no idea, ugh!
I really want to learn a different language...What if i did that for a year. Work and learn a different langauge fluently, then go to the country where that language is the main language, French or Spanish.
I mean I still would like to get my Masters in Public Health, but I just feel like I need to focus on me and figure out what I really want in my life. I need to understand my strengthens and weaknesses.

Somethings I really want to do is:
Learn a different language fluently
Speech Class (So I can speak clearer and more eloquently in a casual and business settings)
Find my personal style (fashion, makeup, spirituality, personality, if that makes sense etc)
I also want to learn more about the things going on around the world. I believe that someone that has knowledge has power, and I want knowledge.
I would like to get to know God more, more like a relationship!!

....to be continued

Whats new 2012? HAIR, Health, yada yada!

So it's now 2012, Happy New Year, and guess what??? I am back on my natural hair journey. I Big Chopped Dec 16, 2011 and will NOT be turning back! I will stay on this journey and my hair will love me for that. This is the second time I've BC'ed, the first time I BC'ed was back in Dec 2009 (whats up with December being my BC months? lol) I transitioned for 7 and a half months. My original plan was to transition for 2 years, but yea -_- I gave up on that one. I am happy with my decision and my hair is longer than what I thought it would be. The only heat I've put in my hair from since BC'ing was the blow dryer after a wash. I get sick very easily so unfortunately I can not do a wash&go until the summer. I am also a lot more health concsious I have high choleseterol, and I really need to get that under control so I will attempt to eat healthier, excercise, and hopefully the results will show through my hair, skin and weight. I would love to add a simple makeup look to my daily routine. I feel a lot better when I know I look good, and even though I know I look good without make up, I just love to jazz myself up a little. Every girl is entitled of that. Tomorrow I will be heading to Target to get some supplies that will help me kick off my new routine. I'm so excited! I actually need to write a list. That will help a lot!

Things I need:

Primer
Foundation
Moisturizing Mist (ElF MakeUp line, I read great reviews about it)
Nude Eye Shadows to brighten up around my eye


I've already gotten a regimen down for my hair. I love simplicity so the only thing I'm doing now is, Co Wash (weekly), Deep Conditioning (Homemade mixes weekly), Moisturize and Seal (daily) and Vitamins (hairfinity daily). There might be a few spontaneous things I do from time to time but thats basically my regimen until my hair gets longer, rocking a TWA is incredibly easy the second time around.

I'll be adding a picture sometime soon! =)