A rock and a hard place....

I don't love it, from since its been a part of me, I can not readily remember one fond moment...i know there might be one or two but seriously its not something I smile about when I think of it, and I don't know when that will ever change....I am at the point to where I just want to forget it!....don't try to guess because you have no idea what I am talking about! Its sad and I am upset that I feel this way, but what can I do, I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place.